Tonight was a fundraiser for LEEP and since JR was working, I took Maddox along with me. I have realized that as time has gone on and he is getting older, taking him places on my own is really not a great option. He used to be SO good, easy to contain (you know, a newborn!) and now he just isn't. It isn't really that he is naughty (cuz to be fair, he isn't) he is just BUSY. Not kinda busy, SUPER busy.
One of the best things about my little boy though is the fact that he is a lover. He LOVES to give hugs and kisses which Mommy definitely adores. On the other hand, he doesn't quite realize how much stronger and sometimes how much bigger he is than other kids.
I tell you this because if you see him running crazy in public you can think back to this and hopefully remember what I am talking about. :)
So tonight he was doing his typical Maddox thing running circles, playing with video game buttons, and jumping around. He was getting a little too wound up I tried to calm him down. He just gets mad and of course I get embarrassed. Sometimes I would just much rather crawl in a hole than deal with his outbursts.
Anyway, a friend of mine was there with his little girl who is about a month younger than Maddox. Earlier Maddox had given the little girl a really nice hug (he even laid his head on her shoulder) and then they went their separate ways. When he came back around he was still coming full speed when he went in for a hug and he knocked her over, fell on top of her, and they both were crying. Poor little girl hit her head pretty hard and I felt awful!
Situations like that are so awkward. I really didn't know what to say besides apologizing profusely! I waited for about 10 minutes to figure out if the little girl was ok (and the parent's said she is) but I still felt terrible. It took everything in me not to cry.
I guess I have to chaulk it up to a learning experience but I hate that it happened. I worry about it because I hate the feeling that people are constantly judging me and my parenting style. I am keenly aware that when things happen in public, I am very sensitive to what people are thinking. I don't want to be known as the mom with the kid that is a bully!
I guess what I can try to take away from this is to remember that everyone parents differently. Though I may not agree, kids'll be kids.