I've got it.
I knew it would come.
It is an ugly beast but I've gotta deal.
I started to pack Maddox up to head down to stay in Iowa for a week with Nana and Papa and I feel guilty. It is my first time leaving him overnight (EVER) and I am beginning to really feel a heavy weight on my shoulders.
As I laid him down tonight I teared up a little.... I began thinking that I won't be putting him to bed till Thursday and that is tough. I'll get through it but it is tough.
I wanna travel, I want to do things that don't always include my kids but I just can't shake the darn Mommy guilt. I guess on the upside I will only have to deal with this for the next 70 (hopefully) or so years that I am still around and able to be a Mommy.......
Wish me luck!
awww...i remember when i first left mia for 3 nights..it was hard, but it was nice to get some me time(and time w/ hubs); it'll make you a better mommy and the best part-he's so young he wont even remember you left him;)
ReplyDeletehave a fun vacation!
jess